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Name: The Brower Power
Gender: Male
Interests: I guess that they want you to write something here... oh my! is this thing on?.. Hmm... What was I saying? Oh yeah, I like stuff in general, major, colonel, and private. This stuff may include such things as surfing, biking, singing, music (as a whole, but only the kind I like), baseball, pool, video games (in the free time that does not exist), and snowboarding (you know me, always jumping to contusions)... So yeah, I like stuff...
Expertise: I am amazingly good at not much... Well, there are Jacks-of-all-trades... so I'd be a Jack-of-not-so-many-trades. I am exceptional at confusing the heck out of people... that's got to count for something...
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AIM:  SonoftheAlmighty
Member Since:
11/6/2004
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| Yeah... that's pretty much it.
I love Him... for He first loved me...
And then I love her... because she is my blessing...
I will grow. God will see to that. And I will work with all of my strength to become a man that is a man of God.
And someday, I will be a leader... one who can be strong for one who wishes to not be.
God, grant me the strength to be your child... and the child you made me to be. | | |
| I know how much just being who I am has hurt someone... someone who once was special to me. I just found out... and when I did, I realized that I shouldn't have been trying to fix the problems all along.
It's funny, the more you try to add glue and tape, the more other pieces shatter and break.
It is time to move on... it has been time to move on for a while. And so I have.
"Take the pieces when you go" were the words that she used from a song. I have been wished away, and the time has long come when I should be taken by the winds of reality and move to a new life, a new chance, and a new love... and I greatly embrace those winds.
I smile... at the thought of being so special to a recently-turned-22 young lady... who is so beautiful... who will someday wear that odd skirt I made for her... who someday... I plan to marry.
She's the most amazing woman I have ever known. She is the only person I can ever imagine spending my life with... and so I pray for the strength and intestinal fortitude to do what is right always... and to leave all else that holds me down behind.
The road behind was tough. God is good to me. So I smile. | | |
| I love Jeannie more than I love any other person... she is the most amazing person to come into my life.
I love my parents, yes... but Jeannie's that one person whom I wish to never live a moment without.
She makes me fall in love with her every time she comes around... and I think she's more beautiful than any other woman (sorry, ladies).
I love her... I love you.
(But I love all the rest of you folks too!) | | |
| So what's my life been the last year? What's the reason I've kept on going? Where have I gone?
I'm no longer the man I once was. I have changed... some things for the better, some for the worse. I have gone through so much this year... everything from heartbreak to failures to near-death encounters... Many of you watched as my relationship with one fine young lady fell apart... some of you held me up... some of you held me close... and some of you showed me what your character is made of. You all watched as I was blessed in my heartbreak. You saw someone else come and join me as I walk through my life. Some of you even sat with me as I shook from my brush with death... (and those of you who didn't might know how blessed I am some day).
Why did I continue to walk? The one whom I have called my Master took it into His awesome plan to love me and bless me even when I was at my unloveliest, and continues to rain down His mercy as I sit in His glory with all of my brokenness. He held me in His hand and sent His angels to guard me in my time of danger. Never before have I been blessed as I am now, yet I still fail Him and present a bittersweet picture of who I should be, one who calls himself "Christian". Yet I walk. Why? Because I am called. Because I have been forgiven. Because He died ONCE so I could be forgiven for ALL that I do... for all that I will do... for all that I have done... because He loves... Me...
Where have I gone? I have been to the brink of depression and to the forefront of elation. My life has been full of mistakes. So has yours... But I am loved... by Jeannie... by my parents... by those who call me friend not by name alone but also in action.
It's no perfect life. I am no great man. I haven't done all I wanted to do.
But if God grant me the strength and time, I shall live a life pleasing to the ONE. (And maybe even be content too.)
May your year be blessed by the one who forgives crazy guys like me.
Eiranae ek | | |
| Okay... so either someone on campus is TRYING to get me sick, or the doctors have messed with my meds to keep me sick... but whatever it is... just as I FINISHED with my last bout of strep, something just whacked me this morning... I have no idea what is going on, but whatever it is... it's looking like strep... AGAIN.
I took all of the antibioitics, I slept for about 8 hours most nights... and even recently, I've been getting around 7 hours of sleep... but either my body has built up an immunity to the meds they're giving me (or more specifically the bacteria I'm finding have built a resistance...) or the meds weakened my immune system enough to allow another infection to whack me in the face...
I'm going to the doctor's today... Doc Bonner won't be pleased with me missing most of UCO, but it's better than possibly missing a concert.
This is getting old really fast.
Please pray for me.
Thanks | | |
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